Who would have thought?

        

        Have you ever reached a point in your life wherein you just feel sad for no particular reason at all? Wherein so many questions would just pop out of nowhere? Questions that you, yourself cannot answer? Personally, I had many of those. Even if nothing bad happened, you just suddenly stop and stare and start thinking. Endless thinking. So many what ifs and not even one answer. 

        I guess that's part of life. We need to have those kinds of days to actually be able to reflect on what's happening with us and around us. 'Coz most of the time we don't really see what's around us if we don't stop. Being sad at one point can actually help us notice the other side of things. Of course, we'll notice first the bad side but at the end of the thinking process we had, we'll realize that a lot of good things surround us. We just don't take time to appreciate them. Feeling sad which leads into deep thinking could be one of God's ways to show us what else He has prepared for us.

        These times could help us in knowing ourselves better. With that one feeling, you start asking questions and those questions will make you think. About yourself and about your whole life. Which is actually good. Who would have thought that being sad could actually be beneficial? Who would have thought that sadness could suddenly turn into happiness? :)

Credits to the owners of the pictures used above.

Happy January :)

As I've said in a previous blog of mine, I'll be blogging at the end of every month. Just to have a summary of how a certain month went by. 

I guess the title summarizes how my January was. Corny as it may sound but yes it was definitely a happy month. Well, I'm not happy everyday, trust me. I still have those days wherein I just feel so down even if I don't know why. But it's lesser when compared to last year. Anyway, the start of my January was a great one and the end of it was even better. 

Let me share what happened this month :)

I started the month with my family, I even blogged about it here. It was truly memorable! Well, every moment with my family is worth keeping. I know you also treasure every moment with your family. If not, then I suggest that you should. On the first day of January we had our complete family picture wherein we all wore blue.  

CANLAS FAMILY♥

Then on the first Thursday of the month I was able to complete the nine days of novena to St. Jude Thaddeus. And until now, I'm still attending the mass & novena every Thursday. It's always a great feeling whenever I attend the novena & mass. I always get this feeling of fulfillment. :) I will always be grateful to St. Jude Thaddeus :)

Yay! :)
(from my planner)

Then on the first Friday of the month, of course, I attended mass. And, it was also the day wherein I got the chance to bond with two of my cousins. 

Photo from my cousin's instagram account: geecanlas :)

It was also this month wherein I was able to exercise more. I was able to stick with one of my plans. I was also able to jog for at least two times a week. I'm liking it :) I should continue this. I wanna have that "Bora body" hahaha! I wish. 

healthy living :))))

Another reason why I loved my January: three of my favorite series are back! Oh, simple joys. 

Pretty Little Liars.

90210.

The Vampire Diaries.

Then, I was able to watch the DLSU-ADMU women's volleyball game at the San Juan Arena. It was my first time to watch it live. Here's my blog entry about it. :) Click this hahaha. 

My only photo that day. Sorry. Low quality -_-

And it was also in this month wherein I got the chance to bond with my high school friends. We see each other almost everyday. We just hang out mostly at our house and we have fun even with those simple things. I love hanging out with them. Non-stop kwentuhan at tawanan =)) Our high school barkada had our 6th year anniversary last January 14 :)

This is the photo I uploaded on my instagram: rosannebianca :)
Happy 6th again dhaber =)

This month, I was also able to do something new. Yup, I just blogged about that earlier. Since I really want my own ombre shorts I decided to make one plus some cropped tops :) 

Tops: BEFORE.

Tops: AFTER.

Shorts: BEFORE.

Shorts: AFTER.

Learn how to make one. Here :)

Another reason why I loved this month: I made use of my planner wisely. Yay for me! Hahaha. I doodled, wrote quotes, notes, appointments etc. I was glad that I really started using it, it was so full. Here's a glimpse of my planner. It's blurry so you won't be able to read it hahaha!

MOSTLY DOODLES. =))

THERE :)

Then, the last two things that happened this month that really completed it would be the news that my new phone will be delivered after 3 days (I've waited for this for two months) and receiving the news that I was accepted in a medical school :) You know what, I received both news on the same day which was last Tuesday, January 29 :) I was definitely a happy kid that day! Another good thing was I got my phone the day after they called. Napaaga pa =)) I'm really one lucky girl. 

I told myself that 2013 would be my year, yes I claimed it. And, I think it's starting to be true. Only one month have passed and I already received so many blessings. God knows when to answer our prayers. He surely has the right timing. Always. That's why we should never doubt Him. If He doesn't give it in an instant, I'm sure that He's just waiting for the right time to answer your prayer. That's what happened to me. There were days wherein I felt so so sad but the next day a great news would come out. So I guess that's just part of our lives. We have to get used to the ups and downs of life, life is a roller coaster ride indeed. It may get rough at times, we may be scared of it sometimes but at the end of the ride we would always say; "It was fun and worth it. I wanna try it again."

Holding back.

Have you ever felt sad without even knowing the reason why? Or were there times wherein tears would just fall down from your eyes? Some of you may say that that's impossible or that's just nothing. But to tell you the truth, it happens a lot to me. Even if I'm not really thinking about something or someone, tears would just fall. And the worst part is, sometimes they'll continuously fall even if you're trying to hold the tears. Until now, I don't know the explanation to it. Maybe because I'm not even trying to find out the reason why this happens. Whatever the reason is, one day I'll know it. 

For the past year, that happened most of the time. It may be because I'm always at home and alone or what. Or maybe because of the "not so nice" things that happened last year. But as I've said, I'm not even thinking about anything at all when tears would just drop. All along I told myself that I should stop with the drama and all. But what I don't know is that it's not really "drama". It's actually something someone can't control. Before, I thought that I could control it. I even said that this year I would stop with that. But I can't. I can't tell myself what to feel. It feels what it feels. That's it. 

This year, I told myself that I should stop thinking about the things that happened in the past that makes me feel sad. That's what I told myself because I don't want to dwell in the past. I want to keep moving forward and just forget. But I guess it's not that easy. It's not some kind of magic that could just be poofed away. It's the emotions we're talking about here. 

I always try to control what I feel. And what does it do to me? It doesn't really make what I'm feeling go away. It's actually the reason why I start thinking about things. The moment I feel sad, that's when I start thinking about what's really wrong or what makes me sad. And I don't like that feeling. :( Well, that proves I'm not a robot. 

I know that the memories of the "not so nice" things that happened last year wouldn't be forgotten easily but I hope that one day I would just find myself with tears of joy. I want to be happy. I will be happy. :) 

What have I learned from this experience of mine? Nothing good happens when you're holding back. 

One step at a time.

Can you believe that? 2012's over. It's already 2013! Wow! Time does really fly. 

It has been a tradition in our family to welcome the New Year at Clark, Pampanga. It may be in Fontana or Mimosa. For the past three years, I think, we spent it at Mimosa 'coz it's bigger and we have a big family that's why it's very suitable for us. It's actually a great place to spend the holidays for we stayed in the same house which became our bonding. We stayed there for three days, from December 30-January 1. It's one of the holidays that I personally look forward to. We're always complete in welcoming the new year which is actually a great way to start the year. Spending it with loved ones is always a great feeling❤ 

Let me share our "three-day bonding" :) 

On December 30, we just stayed at Mimosa almost the whole day. It was only around 6pm wherein we went to SM Clark with some of the girls. :) 

Non-stop eating for the whole day :)) BUSOG.

After dinner, I had the chance to chat with some of my nieces. Girl talk :) It was nice to actually chat with them and talk about "things". Hahaha =)) We were awake until 2 in the morning, I guess. It was actually fun! It was great to have such conversations with them. Naks =))))))

Day 1 pictures❤❤❤

Upon arriving :) 

Nyel & Kryx. 

With cutie Kryx :)

Maui & Nyel.

With Maui :)

With Maui again.

Kryx, Kuya Ivan & Ate Rocky.

Mommy & Ate :)

Happy kid si Malory :)

Kantahan =))

Kwentuhan sa hallway. With Zia, Kaela & Maui. 

Kaela & Maui. 

While on December 31, we had a loooooooong day. The boys woke up at around 7 in the morning to play basketball. I woke up at 9, boo :( Anyway.. the kids then had a swim. I just went with them 'coz I was too lazy to swim. Hahaha! Then, after lunch we were supposed to go to Dinosaur's Island but then it costs 350 pesos and we were fifteen or more? hahaha! So, we just decided to go biking. It was fun! I actually missed biking and I loved the environment there. It was peaceful :) After, we went back to Mimosa. Then, had a little grocery shopping at Puregold. Oh, chocolates❤ Hihi :> Then, we just had little chats with each other inside the villa. When we ran out of topic, we went outside to star gaze. Naks haha :)) The weather was great :) It was cold outside :) The feeling of lying on the grass while looking at the stars, priceless.❤ Then, the tiring thing that we did was run. I actually played with my nephews and nieces. Takbo kami ng takbo =)) Nakakapagod hahaha! Then, it was already 11:30 pm so we decided to go to the clubhouse for the countdown and to watch the fireworks display. It was beautiful!!! We were also able to see the fireworks display from Fontana :)) Everything was beautiful! Then, it was time for Media Noche! Kainan na naman =)) BUSOG. We were awake until 3 in the morning :) 

Day 2 pictures❤❤❤

Swimming :)

Sun-bathing without the sun hahaha!

:)

Love these two❤ 

I missed biking.

the lovers.

Biking with Maui.

Lakas maka-telenovela nito =))
Trip ko masyado yung picture na 'to :)

Tambay sa room.

Take two.

Malory & Kaela.

Star gazing with Kaela, Jade & Maui. 

Girls :)

thumbs up!

:)

Jerom & Kaela.

:)

My nephews & nieces.

Funny Atom =)

They're trying to imitate Atom's pose :))

Haha! My jeje pamangkins =)))) jk. 

Nyel & Malory. 

While waiting for the fireworks display :)

love.love.love.

:)

With Ate, Daddy & Mommy. :)

With Malory again & again :)

***Sorry if we have so many pictures on Day 2. Actually, kulang na kulang pa yan =)) 

Now, let's go to our last day. On January 1, we just spent half of the day together. So, around 10 in the morning we had our yearly raffle :) I didn't win anything, as usual. Hahaha! But my mom won the overnight stay at H20 hotel :) Yeah, she's always lucky when it comes to raffle. Then after the raffle we had the "pictorial". Hahaha! For this year, we decided to wear something blue. We have so many pictures that day. Non-stop picture taking. We were vain for that moment. Hahahaha =)) I loved all our pictures that day. ❤

Day 3 pictures❤❤❤

Nyel, Ate Gigi, Kaela & Jade.

Ate Ruth, Sam, Atom & Kuya Frank.

Jelo, JM, Ate Lyn, Kuya Rommel & Jerom. 

Kraus, Ate Michelle, Kryx, Keiji & Kuya Ronnie.

Zia, Ate Ritz, Kuya Zal & Miggy,

Maui, Dempsey & Kuya Jun.

the lovebirds. 

Mommy, Ate Rocky, me & Daddy.

my brothers.

With Ate Rocky :)

Sisters. 

Epic picture hahaha! We weren't ready. =))

the girls =)

the boys =)

❤CANLAS FAMILY❤

Starting the year with the family, nothing can beat that.
2013, we're ready for you!
I know that it won't be an easy ride and this year will be full of ups and downs but I'll make sure that I'll be ready for every bump in the road.
Bring it on! I'm ready to reach for my goals this year.  

I'm ready to be happy.
One step at a time.