Moving forward.

The year is almost over. Two days left and it’s already 2013 and this would probably be the last blog entry I’ll be having. Well, for this year. Haha! I’ll definitely continue blogging until I can. So, what will this entry be about? Of course, it will be about how my 2012 was. Was it the best or just better than 2011 or was it only good? Let’s see. :)

If I would look back, I could say that 2012 wasn’t really my year.  It was definitely full of ups and downs, mostly downs.

It was in this year that I had my thesis done and it wasn’t easy. We had problems with our thesis and we even had to defend on summer term. Yes, problems with the mice. :( There were times wherein we just wanted to change our thesis topic. Just because of frustration with the mice and all. But the good thing was, we were able to go through it. We actually finished our thesis and had our defense. That was the happiest feeling that summer and because of that we graduated on time.

It was also this year that I was supposed to go to med school, I blogged about that last June or July, I think. It was definitely the lowest point in my life this year. Things didn’t go the way I wanted it that’s why I wasn’t able to continue fulfilling my dreams. I just kept enumerating reasons why that meant to happen, like it was not yet time, I wasn’t ready and all. Those things. Until now, I admit that I still feel upset whenever I remember that I’m not in med school but as I’ve said in my blog entry way way back, that won’t stop me from reaching my goal in life. ‘Coz I know that this is what I want to be one day, a doctor. And I’ll never stop from fulfilling that dream of mine. That’s why in 2013, I promise myself that I will do everything to be in med school by then. Whatever school it may be.

And it was this year that I was first hospitalized. Well, not that it was severe. But still, I had to be hospitalized for 2 days and it wasn’t a great experience at all. I would never want to be admitted again. Before I was admitted, I was still going to work for that week. It was actually Tuesday night when I felt sick but I still went to work the next day even though I’m not feeling well, just because I had to. That feeling continued until Thursday and I really can’t move so I had to be absent and it was only until Friday that I was decided to be brought to the hospital ‘coz I was really crying because of pain so again I wasn’t able to go to work. It was actually the last day of my “training” but sadly I wasn’t able to go. And the other sad part is that I thought they would consider my absences because I was in the hospital and sick but I was wrong. I even went to the office immediately to bring my med certificate and explain and they said that they would call me. But what happened? Weeks have passed and no single call from them so I decided to call them and guess what? They weren’t answering. Nice, really nice. I got sick and “lost” my supposedly first job. Great. I wasted almost two weeks of my September for that. Good thing is that I was just training. It would actually be okay if they called me and said that they can’t give the job to me and I can't continue anymore but the worst thing is they didn’t call. Bv. Okay, enough for that non-sense. It’s one of the moments in 2012 that I would throw right away.

Lastly, there was this one thing that I really wanted (not a material thing) and I wasn’t able to get it and I was so disappointed with myself. Another addition to the disappointments I bring. :(

Okay, you must’ve noticed that everything I placed above are bad things that happened this year. I’m sorry for ranting. That’s the last of it, I promise. I just had to let it all out. And, I had to place that ‘coz it happened this year and this entry’s all about 2012.

Even if I had so many downs this year, I can still say that I had ups that balanced my year. Hey! I graduated from college this year. I graduated on time. That's something right? It's actually huge for me :) The simple reason that I’m alive is something to be thankful for. It’s definitely one of the many blessings that I’ve received this year. Another would be that my family is complete and I would love for it to stay that way.  I also have my friends who are always there for me. And, this year we never ran out of something to eat. We still had the chance to shop for clothes, gadgets and all. We can actually do whatever we want. Some of you would say that these are just nothing but for me thinking about these things erases the fact that I even had those bad memories written above. Because of these, I realized that I still have a great life and I wouldn’t put it to waste just because bad things happen. I believe that these happened for a reason, I always do. These challenges in my life made me stronger and I’m glad I was able to pass through it all. I know that this won’t be the last of those challenges God will give me, there will be more of them in the coming year and guess what? I am ready. But this time, I will make sure that my ups would be much much much greater than my downs. It will be a great 2013, let's claim it! :)

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P.S. Thank you for taking the time to read this blog entry even if it's kinda long and it's just all about my life. You're one of the ups that I consider this year, my readers. If I have some. hihihi :"> THANK YOU!❤