Time to think about myself.

“Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.”

                                                                 -Lao Tzu

     I just realized that I always care about what other people will think of me and it's not really a good thing. Most of the time, whenever I try to do new things I would always think of what other people would be thinking of me. That would always be the first thing on my mind. I never really cared about what I would feel if ever I would follow what I want to do. I know I'll be happy but thinking of what others would think would still be on top. And, whenever I fail to do something, I would still think of what others are thinking instead of just telling myself that it is just fine. 

     Just for instance, when I graduated from college and I didn't have any awards or whatsoever, I didn't even think of myself first but instead I thought of what my classmates, batchmates or even my teachers back in high school would think. I felt sad 'coz I know that I wasn't able to maintain what I had back in high school. I know that some would be saying things about me and that's really bothering me. I don't know why I'm always like that. I always care about what others think instead of thinking of myself first and I do need to change that. It's really a bad attitude. It's not that I'm doing something bad that's why I need to think of what others would say but maybe because I have that "image". Because for most people, their first impression of me would be the good, simple, sort of shy & timid, studious, grade conscious type of person. So, every time I do something "new" for them, I know some people would say something. For example, nowadays I am really into accessorizing and dressing up and for others they are not used to that. I also enjoy dancing, acting and things like that and again for others they don't see me doing those things. So I know that there are people who are saying something about me when it comes to those things. Even the smallest things that I would be doing, I know there would still be people around me that would be criticizing or saying something about me and I can't change them.

     I know that there would always be people who are like that. And I should really stop concentrating on those things and I should just focus on what would make me happy. If I would be doing something (and I assure you it won't be bad) or deciding on something, I'll make sure to think of myself first. I need to do that for myself  'coz all my life I have been thinking of what others would say or think first instead of what I would feel. I am now giving time to think about myself first whenever I would be making choices or even taking risks. 

I would definitely remember this.
Another photo that I posted on instagram:)
Credits to the owner.